Monday, September 15, 2008

Guilty...

I hate guilt. I think it is the most useless of human emotions. At least anxiety has some sort of evolutionary purpose in that it prepares people for the worst. But guilt, on the other hand, is like the "too little too late" stepchild of anxiety. And unfortunately, while I sit here on the couch, completely without agenda, I can't help but feel a little guilty. I totally blew off the two hours of lecture we had after our exam and I am having a terrible time doing anything now that I'm here. But, I just don't want to do anything. I've always thought of test days as rest days. Once the exam is over, I feel like all the work that went into the exam should be acknowledged by taking a mental health day.

Intellectually, it makes perfect sense that a person has to rest after a load of work. It prevents burnout, lets your mind get back to baseline and ready to start again. Like I said, intellectually and logically, it's a sound theaory. But guilt isn't based on logic, and the brain does have this whole irrational system of emotion called the limbic system. Well, look at that, neuroanatomy. Looks like I'm off the hook afterall!

2 comments:

medicine girl said...

Definitely relax while you can! Rules to live by once clerkships begin (and might as well practice a little now):

1. Sit when you can
2. Sleep when you can
3. Eat when you can
4. Go home when you can!

And now it's time for me to go back to work after I ate & relaxed while I could at lunch. :-)

Anonymous said...

New Mugsy pics please! -Kathryn